I stop It....

Not much raw not much ripe,
Not stuck in high pride
keep walking ,
I take it in my stride.

Horrendous havoc and hurdles hackle
Glitches do come and I continue to tackle

I maintain my pace ,struggle to be in race.
Few times in my cave, keep sitting grave

I think of me , think of you.
Think of world and I stop it then.

continued....
20 Sept 2008

Entering Next phase..

Time to say farewell and bye
to this phase of life,
entering another
with hope and glorious smile.

couple of years,
like dry leaves they flew away.
lazy, active, joyful and hedonist that i have been,
melancholy generated hope lit up my way.

some luck , chance and
bit of intelligence chose the
long roads I traveled
Squares fascinated a lot.

I wondered for the dimensions
I never went through
now no more afraid of new arrivals
am more welcoming, more receiving.

My time, love and likeness,
heart soul and innocence all tried.
Success or failure, I don't claim,
but I was edified.

entering another phase,
with hope and glorious smile.


with all love
dedicated to the last year( sept-2007 to sept 2008) of my life
Sh@lini
on 12 sept night..

and They parted.

Two pairs of shiny black eyes
gazing in same direction.

two complimentary honey brown palms,
hand in hand.

settled out on hay heaps
basking in sunshine.

legs stretch to full length
lying parallel to each others.

He told him that he was
about to leave for boarding

and she has to be left
both at the age of nine.

fear of being alone
made them sit even closer.

hearts and soul
already overlapped.

one hand on each others neck
both exchanged soft pecks.

eyes shut firmly
unwilling to open.

for threads tightly bound,
feelings made a sound.

sobs rolled down the cheeks
crystal clear on that face honey brown.

They sat till the sun shone
hoping the dawn would never come.

but blue evening covered first
all the thoughts then all the sobs.

They hugged, kissed and
finally parted.

..shalini
10 sept
10:10 pm

A letter to myself

1st of September as the date says,
this is the month when I was born years ago,

The same is the month when I get serious about my studies, and this is the month when last year I did not get serious about studies, its nothing like I blew anything up, but It was when I lost my bit of concentration, got indulged more in friends who later cheated and taught me a lesson of life which I never wanted to learn. and I am afraid I still did not learn that lesson, as I still love friends and friendship and I want to trust them.

The season and environment is quite good and soothing exactly same like every year.

but as the years rolled by a lot has changed, and this lot is contained of - my perception, my life, my aim, my past present and future, my thoughts about myself and the world. Nothing changed in that sense but the perception.

A lot of people are involved in this journey of transformation.

I still am the same innocent girl,the same girl who has penchant and curious of analyzing minor causes which leads to big changes.

The reading and the arguing has blinked a lot inside, which eventually shows outside and creates the stir, the jealous.

My past have been all good memories, which comes around like butterflies and sooth.

but my brains heart and soul are still waiting for a glorious moment I think I am entitled to see. The glory is nothing worldly but it means the success, which I define as the prosperity with peace.

I must be content and peaceful as i travel those untraveled roads of bit different inclination.

Miles to go , and a lot to achieve.

Its not a "have to do" thing. but I want it from the depth of heart, Its only the amount and quality of work which satisfies me the way I want, up to the limits I want, no wonder as I say I don't bound my satisfaction in limits.

The times when I think of myself, not different but I see myself in a and with a different light,

Its me only with whom I can do all research and with myself only I can know this most difficult creature of world..."The human" , the human brain... the psychology and the computers and a lot... all of my interest.
In between I realized it important to have good human relationships.

I have got a few friends and the world's best parents and siblings, and hopefully when the right time will come I will get my soul mate as well.

The life has taught a lot, the failures as well as the success.

There is one thing at what i need to work, and that is "perseverance".

I don't want a momentary success, but the peace of life to be consistence and if not constant ..only little variations.

There are few of my secret dreams, which will come true as I will get money and support from people.

Working, managing and keeping the people happy is a great challenge when you decide to work the way you want.

well.... still there is a lot to see, a lot to learn, and a lot to earn ... as the world has a lot to offer to everyone of us.

All we need is to just grab it!!

with all love and regards

keep basking in life!
--
Sh@lini.....

As the river flows

I go blank as the soothing breeze blows
mingle with the nature as the river flows.

I keep sitting while my soul walks,
walks through the roads of sky and stars;
The roads smell good, they seem long,
Standing, wondering where do I belong!

I wallow in past and plan my future,
I be lazy and work sometime like amateur;
I come across both, air and fire,
Ruby, diamond, topaz and sapphire!

my soul walks and reaches to you,
with 'you' I don't mean YOU..;
my love, my mate, the best thing of my life,
I mean my alter ego!

I stretch my arms, with the closeness I feel,
I look lovingly as my thoughts all smitten with zeal;
zeal of getting and being abut you,
No callow feelings we are soul fellows!

I go blank as the soothing breeze blows,
mingle with the nature as the river flows!!


...shalini
18 aug 2008