The Girl's confession

I guess.... these are the final words you are having from me...but I am not sure If these really are final..... Cause I am neither forcing my self to forget u nor I want to.
Any ways..... I wont suggest you to start this relationship again ... Cause I was happy the way you started once and came along....at the place where you found me more or less otiose to share urself....
whatever u think,whatever u want really matters to me much.... and I dunno till when it will keep mattering ...
All I wanted to continue our relationship...even after my big mistakes whatever you found out and would love to carry on even after the mistakes you will find in future cause I really am bad.
But since I respect your feelings as a person also .... (and If I would be anybody else Instead of the one.... with whom you talked sweet and infact the way others did not, )
so will be happy seeing you happy ...go the way whichever you like ..... because you think the ways are different ...... Thats also fine with me....
but u can not stop me thinking my way ....and let me clear that I am not thinking to get u back or starting fresh ...
Continuing things with the committment and not to make such mistakes again is all i want...

I dont want to forget you....coz i liked you but I can not promise that i will keep remembering you. This was a good experience to share me with u at a better level. I really wont lie here ....but I thought that you will be always there but coz U really do not care ....again its fine .... I too have family and friends and moreover Me myself with better experiences of my life to go on , to carry on. I am neither requesting you to be back and hold my thoughts again ... nor will be praying God that make me reach to you..
If you will be my destiny in future.....you have to move back ...and let me be your fellow traveler...
and if not then also you have to move back and .....u have to give me the way to be forward to you....coz i always see forward...and thats why i am seeing u right now .. but after that I wont be seeing you.
Initially I thought we were travelling on the paths those were different and met by chance
Now I see Those were parallel
but If you dont want to see.... again i will be happy coz ....I accepeted you as it is, whatever u were , are , and will be. I simply dont want any change but the improvements ....as in you and also am ready and willing to make them in me .
So thats all....
I wrote whatever I felt .... just to let u know ....that I know how to struggle and how to win.... and i also want to remind u that once I won you,,,, so now here is no point to lose you.

with love and kiss on your forehead---
The Girl

Life made me perfect!!

Days and nights were lonely when you left
All the illusions vanished and I wept
Everybody left when I was bereft
I learnt a lot, life made me perfect.

The promises you did and I kept
Those times what I wasted with you were best
But now I won’t trust anyone, and I won’t expect
I am no callow creature, Things really do affect.

I learnt a lot, Life made me perfect……

-Shalini….
19 February 2008

Aie Zindagie

chal mere sang kuchh is tarah ki
apna safar bhi ban jaye kahani
mar na jaon kahin tujhse milne se pahle
ai mohabbat mujhe bakhsh de zindagani

vo na aye kabhi jinhe aana na tha
sisakti rahi dil ki haweli veerani
thahara na rah jaun kahin unke intezar mein
sang le chal mujhe zindagi ki rawani

-sajal (shalini)
8 june 2008

Things Change......

Things change, when it comes to you…

Spaces and distances, in my case really matter

What I will feel, I always see it latter…

I really never bothered about anybody else….

But things change when it comes to you

I listened carefully, whatever you said

Sometimes those things pop up in my mind uninvited

I really hardly care about what people say

But things change when it comes to you.

I was afraid of mischief, I was afraid of deception

I also loved love, but I was afraid of hatred

Always think, I am not the way people expect

But things change when it comes to you.

Time changed gradually from competition, to completion

From completion to celebration…

From our callow thoughts to devotion

And here comes time to say farewell and bye

But things change, when it comes to you

I never owe God anything beside my family

But things change, when it comes to you.

shalini...
18 september 2008
(Deepika's b'day)

I am .....

A lot of dreams in myopic eyes,
and a lanky figure to struggle.
working there passionately,
where life uses to puzzle.

Neither excited with pleasures,
nor dull with pains.
soul loves peace
black pearls cool as rain.

truthful, naive, straight forward at tongue....
conclude that I am a complete idiot..

The UpperCrust!!

Hard and tough in my case
Impatient was the diamond base
Teary heart and cheeks wet
Far alone from the destination yet

warrior born when baby died of inside
No one knew upper crust was best hide
Pleasure alleviated the pains
Eyes still and so were brains

Efforts blossomed as warrior learned and alert
and the diamond out to shine the world
Shone with full spark and grace
Naivity showed no trace

People loved it for the emitted rainbows
More emission more satisfaction flowed
Pleasure kept coming the way ,
To make 'I' happy and gay
but then....

The worldlier it became it lost its treasure
No comparison of baby's joy to warrior's pleasure
No more truths no more innocence
it misses a lot upper crust's absence...

shalini
28 april 2008

The people and their motivations

This article I am going to write is completely fictitious and all is my imagination and maps to my mind only. It has nothing to do with others thinking about the topic and it just is written to satisfy the inner frustration and survey done due to curiosity on the handful people I met in my life somehow.

The people are the reflection or the consequences of whatever happened in their past and what do they think about their future. The deeds done by them are motivated from their priorities. And these priorities again map their past and one can not help it. It’s really difficult to think like other person, and it gives real pleasure to play individual. Power attracts everybody, even to the people who don’t know how to lead and are quite depressed about themselves.

But in my view people who keep tracking the different ways to get above and gain power are the real participants of human race, and they in general are seen doing better to others. Few people are motivated from their real inside; most of them I have seen and surveyed get influenced from other’s stories that they don’t want their story to be different, as we all have read somewhere that human is a social animal and he really is, and not having much desire of being different from others shows the same. I always felt one thing that who se ever took the lead in whole the scenario was always motivated to do the same things differently, here people want their role model, In fact we all do and should must have as it gives a path to go on, a manner to act like.

But if we talk about the people who achieved huge success were quite different from the others who worked under them, followed them exactly but never reached to same heights as they did, that means creativity counts and initiation take a hold on your success. So what differed in the ones who got ahead of us, what ever I surveyed and find out is their desire to keep working and satisfying them to the fullest. For the people whom I am mapping with what I am writing, I saw the continuity and devotion and large commitments to their work.

And they get in to a habit of winning and the most adventurous thing is that this thing developed unknowingly

So my final conclusion is for the way of living life is …

One must have a purpose of life and if one have not found that purpose yet he or she must cogitate and must get to know and then according to desire and will to complete that task one must enjoy doing that and I can assure that then he/she will find him/her self doing that work excellently.

-Shalini

17feb.2008