Saturday, October 27, 2012

Oh No! She bought the same handbag as mine!!


It is not recently but for many years I have silently been present in the Talks of 'Boasting one's sense of fashion - being, and the integrity of existence'. Sometimes with my relatives, other times with my friends or colleagues.
Every now and then I found people talking about their unique tastes!
It's not bad, just that sometimes its too much. 
Why this hankering to  be extraordinary, to be someone, some thing?
Now you may be wondering that why this bothers me. It doesn't bother me, It amuses me rather.

I see these women who want to  become extra ordinary, they indeed become extra ordinary mainly by suffering rare diseases like physical, mental or social disorders.
I wonder whether they attract such unique things to them too ? the same way they attract beautiful dresses, shoes and handbags.

Why can't one be satisfied being ordinary, here i am not saying ordinary means you be the part of masses. To me, Ordinary means accepting, natural, being a little easy when you see someone else carrying the same purse as of yours. Don't simply just dump yours to prove your uniqueness.


May I conclude that women are more egoistic than men?

I sometimes think of telling this to those young girls who are loosing the bliss of 'lady-ness', What they reveal to me is that for them Gracious means branded, and appealing means fashionable. Buddy I tell you , The generation is in little trouble.
But then I continue to keep my silence, because it is Their choice, to accept the picture of the world painted by parents, leaders, priests, friends and role - Models.





Wednesday, September 26, 2012

In rhythm

Pain does not decompose if we bear it and so does anger.
I decided to release them a couple of months ago.
I also decided to let go some of the things, that were very dear to me, for example, I always liked to appear Perfect, and in order to be perfect, I worked hard to please Ones I loved or respected.

I have changed my Gods recently, actually killed all of them.
I have decided to live, not to let it go in pleasing.

My upbringing has some very common flaws, (They are traits to my parents)
Life is about being independent, independent means earning, earning means education, and further educations means something that can reap you more than what you need, more means collecting garbage, keeping it, showing it off.... well I will stop here.

Lately I have stopped feeling an urge to write (to please one's acumen)
As a rule I document my life's last year on every birthday, either on my diary or on my blog.

This year the moment I picked the pen, I could not come up with anything but one word 'Content' and nothing further. My mind didn't race to pick the words and pack them and deliver them in to a piece of writing.

Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Mikshami Dukdam


Your actions can be undone, impact of those actions can't be.
Sometimes we think that time heals every wound,It does but It does not heal the wounds left uncared/avoided, Possibility is that the pain will be even more Painful.

Recently I have learned the phrase 'Mikshami Dukdam', Heard it a lot by my Jain colleagues and students on this Samvatsari, when I asked, someone explained that They repen
t it if they hurt you for once. !!

I believe Repentance is a foolish act preferred by one incapable of Realizing their faults.
Realization is a double blessing, it heals the wound in other's heart, because naturally your actions start undoing the act and the harm as well.

Most importantly Parents need to make their children equipped to Realize!!

Thursday, July 19, 2012

दीपक की टिम टिम है बाहर,
अन्दर घना कुहाँसा है !


बातों की किलकारी बाहर,
अन्दर बड़ी निराशा है !


सपने बड़े, बड़े हैं अपने,
तोड़े खड़े खड़े हैं सबने !
जीवन की चिंगारी बाहर,
अन्दर सभी धुंआ सा है!

मन का मीत, और मीत का मन,
जब सब कुछ हवा हवा सा है !
इस मन को समझाएं कैसे,
ये खुद ही बुझा बुझा सा है !

दीपक की टिम टिम है बाहर,
अन्दर घना कुहाँसा है !!


- शालिनी
१९ जुलाई २०१२